I am going through a bit of a cathartic period lately, where I have been experiencing a lot of different feelings and I have been made aware about a lot of things I didn’t see before. I think it has probably been the constant traveling, or the amount of time I’ve had for myself that made me really think about what I am doing and what I want to do.
I have been wanting to make changes for so long, changes in my life, maybe move somewhere else for a while, or maybe even permanently. I started to get all these thoughts rushing to me in the past few days, after I arrived from Stockholm. It was probably the worst timing as I had to rush to Milan straight after, or maybe the perfect timing, I don’t know. Making big changes can be so fucking scary, sorry about the language but it’s just the truth. This past year has been a constant attempt to break out of my comfort zone in my personal life, something I rarely or never talk about, but I wanted to share this with you because I am sure I am not alone in this. One of the biggest challenges in life is to overcome personal fears, making certain decisions and breaking patterns, even though the thought of it is very scary.
I wanted to share this because I would love to hear your stories and experiences. You guys have been following me for so long that I really feel like have built a small support system and if we haven’t yet, we should really start!. Life if full of amazing moments but also little personal struggles that we can only overcome by ourselves and with the support of the people closest to us. Comfort zones are ‘comfortable’ but they suck! they really do and we should not live life scared of leaving them due to fear of the unknown, even if that fear is sometimes paralysing. I try to remind myself of this every single day, now I just need to put it into action which is easier said than done.
EDIT: A friend just told me that Mercury is in retrograde since the 17th. I didn’t know this was “a thing”, I have heard about it but never really paid attention. I was reading about it and it makes so much sense now, Mercury has been messing with me for a good week now and I need it to stop now. Read this and tell me if this has also been happening to you (?)