Finding myself in the North of Sweden, somewhere where it felt like the middle of nowhere was both incredibly relaxing and a bit terrifying for me. I wasn’t afraid of the forest or the solitude, I was afraid of my own thoughts while I was up there; Have I become too much of a City Girl? Why does being alone with nature scares me and makes me feel “out of my element”?.
Damn, the breath taking beauty up there is beyond what I can even explain in a few words on a blog post and I found myself bringing my iphone camera out every few meters; “I need to capture this place and this moment and this tree and this lake and this meadow and this…….”, until I realized and probably got told to a few times to capture things with my own eyes and put the damn phone away. It was right though.
The country side captured me in ways I cant really put into words, but I gotta say, I am happy to be back in the city. Maybe I am too much of a City girl, but there is nothing wrong with that. I have learnt to mix the two when I have to, or switch one off when I need to. Why cant I be both? Theres no reason why I should stop being who I am but theres also no reason why I shouldn’t enjoy getting dirty while walking in the forest’s muddy surface on my way to the lake and getting rained on while the boat’s engine stops working and having to row back to the shore completely soaked while laughing my ass off because I am in complete shock of what’s actually happening. Ironic and magical.
Photos by Oskar Spångberg