It feels like yesterday, but its not, its almost a year ago since I injured my knee and was put to rest for 6 months, 6 MONTHS! To be honest, it was quite a hard time for me, because exercise is a part of who I am and its a tool I use to be able to cope with stress, a defense mechanism per se, I have had this all my life.
I remember my track and field days, it doesn’t feel like yesterday at all, and it has been over a decade from that. Being a High Jumper was both good and bad for me, good because I cant think of a better thing for me to do in track and field, it was perfect for my body structure and I was also good at it, I freaking loved it! It was bad because it gave me “jumpers knee”, a term I didn’t even know existed to be honest. Working with my trainers in the past few months taught me a lot, about the positives and about the negatives regarding my own personal fitness routine and how to always improve. It also made me realize a lot of things I haven’t before and having a jumpers knee is one of those. What it basically means is that because of high jump and the fact tat we develop a certain running technique (you can see the example on this video), one of my knees got more strained than the other one, which translates on possible knee injuries. I have to be extremely careful when I run to prevent getting injured again and thats why I saw running “We Own The Night” as such a big personal challenge for me, I wanted to prove to myself I could run it.
Coming from a knee injury and a break of 6 months hasn’t been easy but I have tried my hardest, I really have. Maybe you have seen a glimpse of this through my instagram in the past few months. The problem is that I haven’t been able to train consistently due to all the trips I have had to do in the past few months and few weeks ago, my knee injury came back, so we had to stop all running from my training for almost an entire month. It felt like such a step back and I felt incredibly frustrated, because its not something I could control.
The race is on Saturday and I feel like time came on top of me and swallowed me whole. I feel strong and I feel ready but I hope my knee doesn’t let me down on the day. My mom has been texting me asking me how I feel, she knows me, she knows my track and field days, when I used to compete for the national team and I used to get incredibly nervous before championships. She knows my perfectionist self must be freaking out. I know this is just a race but man, it feels like so much more to me, its a personal challenge to prove myself that an injury cant stop me. I hope I can make myself proud, myself and all the people who believe in me, who have been helping me prepare. I hope I can come the finish like with my head held high. Just 2 days to go…